In His Perfect Will, Humbly Being Still...

For the mountains shall depart, And the hills be removed, But My steadfast love shall not depart from you, Nor shall My covenant of peace be removed,” Says the LORD, who has mercy on you. Isaiah 54:10

Today I sat in my Lord’s presence, pleading Him to come near and speak to me. I had so much to tell him, a lot to empty out – praises, petitions, apologies, prayers. Yet all I needed for the moment was just His presence, just Him…and as compassionate as He is, He came. I prayed for forgiveness and He replied that He is a God of compassion, and He delights in showing clemency, and that He will cast all our sins into the depths of the sea (Micah 7:18-19). “But Lord”, I asked, “are you sure” Oh yes, He is, and I was sure that He meant it. Followed were the moments of silence, I did not know what to speak… unspoken prayers, given up petitions, and all those feelings of emptiness and hopelessness hidden somewhere deep within the heart… Just knowing that He was near was enough to bring all those hidden pains out…but I couldn’t speak, I closed my eyes so as to shut my brokenness away… And at that moment I could hear my Lord speaking to me – “My child, don’t doubt Your Lord’s love. I know everything; all that was spoken and unspoken…Believe in My plans for they are perfect. And if you have felt that Your Lord hasn’t answered you, then know that He has perfect reasons. Any situations you have been to, He was always in control. Whatever you are facing now, know that it’s the BEST for you right now”. A beautiful feeling of peace enveloped me as I sat there listening to Him, and I didn’t want those moments to end. Has He really come, or was it just my subconscious mind speaking to me?? I couldn’t believe that My God would choose to come to me and speak to me so lovingly! I asked Him to confirm this to me through His words, and my EVER merciful Lord that He is, He did – Lamentations 3:57 reads: “You came near when I called on You; You said, ‘Do not fear!’…” I realized that in all those times when I thought that He has forgotten about me, in fact He was just there with me. I thought He has stopped listening, but He was holding me close all along. I thought that He had shut His doors to me, but He was busy opening different avenues for me. How many times has He told me that He would never forsake me (Hebrews 13:5…because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.") or that I am precious to Him… Isaiah 43:4. But in my unbelief, I could never believe Him completely. The enemy uses his most powerful weapon to take us away from Him – “unworthiness”. How can God love all of us so much? But our Lord has proved that once and for all how much He loves us – John 3:16. Which Father will give up His own Son for so ungrateful a creation? Which blameless, spotless man can endure so much on the cross for a world who never knew Him? Yet, all I need to forget this truth is just a storm in my life. Though He has proved it in the best way, our Lord as loving as He is, still continues to show in little little ways (and big ways) how much He loves us. All I pray is Lord, give me the grace to remember and BELIEVE that You have done the utmost for me on the cross. There is nothing MORE than the cross. And NOTHING can take me away from Your love. No situation is big enough to defeat Your power. Your plans are perfect and the best, O Lord. And Father, I would any day accept Your dreams for me than following mine. Don’t change Your will for me O Lord, change me for Your plans…In Jesus name, amen!

The Lord has a will, and I have a need 

To follow that will, to humbly be still, 

To rest in Him, nest in Him, fully be blessed in Him, 

Following my Father’s will...

- Excerpts from the Hymn: The Lord Has a Will